When the old me behaved badly, I liked to blame anyone and anything other than myself. And I have to admit that it’s tempting now to try to blame feminism for my anger in the years before my mother got sick.

There is perhaps some justification for this. As Nancy Pearcey noted in her outstanding book Total Truth, “From the beginning, feminism was marked by considerable anger and envy – not toward individual men so much as toward the fact of the opportunities available to men in the public sphere.”*
 
But it wasn’t just the feminism. Being a libertarian contributed to the problem. By definition, I had long rejected virtually all authority, and resented anyone telling me what to do. That was one of the reasons I hadn’t even considered quitting my three-pack-a-day habit; who were they to tell me I shouldn’t smoke? Which of course paved the way for my feeling persecuted by the anti-smoking Nazis of the world – persecuted and ready to blow up.

And blow up I did. Once during a luncheon with a militantly pure-of-lung friend, I let a bit of my smoke drift in her direction, and she fanned the offending plume away from her nose. She hadn’t said a word, but the wave of her hand was enough for me. In my fury, I let loose with the worst insult I could think of: “Oh, and I suppose you like Bill Clinton, too!”

She looked at me as if I’d lost my mind – and indeed I had for the moment it took me to spit out this non sequitur.

Then there was an incident in the Detroit airport, when our flight from the Bahamas got diverted from Milwaukee because of a snow storm, and we were trapped out on a runway for several extra smoke-free hours. The customs official who finally welcomed us into the terminal didn’t appreciate my lighting up the moment I walked through the door, nor did he appreciate the words I hurled at him when he asked me – really, quite politely, I have to admit – to put my cigarette out.

Fortunately, my pure-of-lung lunch-mate forgave me, and I didn’t end up in a federal prison over the near-scuffle with the customs official. But some of my eruptions no doubt did have long-term consequences – especially when they were directed at my mother.

Perhaps the worst incident of all occurred on the Christmas Eve before she got sick. I was taking her back to the nursing home after a present-opening night at our house, with both my sisters and their families and even a visiting dog to chase my cats.

My mother had clearly had a nice time with us; she had been all smiles, all evening.

And then, alone with me in my rusting Chevy Blazer, barreling up nearly deserted Barker Road, she sighed.

“I hate having to go back to the old ladies’ home,” she said. “I have that awful aide tonight, the one who’s so rough with me, and –“

“I can’t believe you!” I snapped, looking at her with my most outraged expression, sure that she was not-so-subtly hinting that she would like to come live with us. “You’re sweetness and light all night long, until you’re alone with me – and then all you can do is complain!”

I don’t know that I’ve ever seen her look so sad.

“I’m sorry,” she said quietly. “It’s just that you’re the only one I can talk to about these things.”

“Well, I can’t do anything about it,” I said, calmer now and already feeling guilty. I knew I’d need a good hour or two to think this one through until I found a way to justify my outburst. “Anyway, if you would just be a little nicer to this aide, maybe she’d be nicer to you.”

As it turned out, I never was able to justify what I’d said to her that night. I wept over it more than once, and to this day cringe whenever I remember it. I think I see it as a symbol of all the pain I had caused her over our lives together, of all the times I’d trashed the wonderful things God had given me.

There were other such incidents throughout my life, most directed at other people – scores of them, no doubt. I guess it doesn’t matter that I’ve forgotten the details. What matters is that it doesn’t have to happen again; the Lord seems to have freed me from this oppression.

And yet, amazing God, He has seen my contrite heart and forgiven me even for this. And more: As Isaac Watts wrote in his 1707 hymn “Alas, and Did My Savior Bleed?”:
 
Was it for crimes that I had done
He groaned upon the tree?
Amazing pity! grace unknown!
And love beyond degree!

(From Heaven Without Her, pages 198-200)

For years, Dr. Jerry Bergman has battled evolution theory through a series of intensively researched books:

• Fossil Forensics: Separating Fact from Fantasy in Paleontology (BP Books, 2017)
• Silencing the Darwin Skeptics (Leafcutter Press, 2016)
• CS Lewis: Anti-Darwinist (Wipf and Stock, 2016)
• Debunking Human Evolution (with Dan Biddle et al, BP Books, 2016)
• The Darwin Effect (Master Books, 2014)
• Transformed by the Evidence (with Doug Sharp et al, Leafcutter Press, 2014)
• Hitler and the Nazi Darwinian Worldview (Joshua Press, 2012)
• The Dark Side of Charles Darwin (Master Books, 2011)
• Slaughter of the Dissidents (Leafcutter Press, 2008)
• Persuaded by the Evidence (with Doug Sharp et al, Leafcutter Press, 2014)
• Vestigial Organs are Fully Functional (with George Howe, Creation Research Society Books, 1990)

 
Dr. Bergman has often targeted Charles Darwin directly in his writings, in the process unveiling the hideous consequences of the Darwian worldview. But it seems that he has saved his most powerful attack for his latest effort, How Darwinism Corrodes Morality (Sola Scriptura Ministries International, 2017).   
 
In this chilling volume, Dr. Bergman examines the disastrous impact of Darwinism on our culture and our lives.  
 
He explores its role in promoting eugenics, in spurring the mid-century sexual revolution, and in paving the way for the mass murder of millions of babies via abortion.
 
He exposes those who relied on Darwinian principles to advance evils that would ultimately be mainstreamed into the modern ethos – including racist eugenicist Margaret Sanger, nihilist Friedrich Nietzsche, atheist “baby doctor” Benjamin Spock and psychoanalyst Sigmund Freud, and white supremacist Karl Pearson.
 
And he demonstrates that Darwinism was the philosophy that drove the atrocities of racist Japanese warriors during World War II.
 
Scholarly yet highly readable, How Darwinism Corrodes Morality probably doesn’t make very good bedtime reading. But it goes a long way toward explaining the amoral mess our culture is in today. And that makes it critically important reading for anyone who is alarmed by the abominations of this modern world. Thank you, Dr. Bergman!